no spark

I love him, i really do but I can't do this anymore.
We're just gonna keep going around in circles.
Me and him are the type of people who should be close friends or in an open relationship. This way he can do what he wants and vice versa and we can't hold it against eachother and just come to eachother for the emotional support.
It's gotten to the point where i'm really unhappy most days and the only times i'm happy is when i'm with him and just force the thoughts out of my head.
I just think we're not gonna make it much longer, so why prolong it?
he deserves to be happy with someone else, its no use me trying to keep him in a monogamous relationship.
I also deserve to be happy in a honest one.
We're just too different, the sparks have worn off i think.
I'm certain that if there had been no previous incidents than maybe i'd still be completely in love with him but with each day it dies a little. He's hurt me so much that it's so hard to believe he won't again.

currently listening: guilty - usher