love, strange to think only a few months ago i could barely understand the concept, and now i can't imagine not feeling it in the future.
he makes me smile, even when he's away :)
he means so much to me that i can't even believe i was so stupid last week as to let other people's talks about their relationships scare me away and in the process scare him.
but as always he remained calm and reassured me.
perfect example of how amazing he is :)
i'm not gonna lie i am scared, and hearing other people talk doesn't really help my fear but as long as he wants me, he has me. and what we have is worth the fear.
i'm scared he'll change his mind and realise he doesn't feel the same, i'm scared he'll leave and when he returns he'll be so different we'll have nothing in common anymore, but mostly i'm scared of him realising that he can find someone else much better for him.
but i'm also kind of excited, because when he returns from trips he gives the best hugs :)
ughh this is so cheesy, but its the truth.
i've always felt different to everyone else, like i don't really blend in with the normalness, and he made me feel like i fit. and it's different. i like different. he's different.
thats how he won me over, he gets me, he makes it easy to love him. and now i can't even imagine what these months would've been like if i had not been with him. would i be with someone else? would he? (i could strongly agree with that as i have no doubt he would've won over many other amazing girls) would i just be drifting on with life...
i'd probably still just be logging online every once in a while seeing him online casually saying hi and still thinking of the day i met him and then forgetting it again for a few months before repeating the process.
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