i wish i was a polar bear so i could hibernate for 6 months at a time

i hate it when people tell me i'm too nice, i need to speak my feelings, i need to stand up for myself.

shut up shut up shut up.

and even worse i hate thinking they're right. the thing is i don't think its done on purpose and i don't think this person realises that sometimes whats said/done affects me. and i don't know.

i'd hate to think someone is manipulating me into what they want me to be. that would hurt most. as long as those around me are happy, i am very happy.

i already have enough trust issues. rant rant rant. i wish i lived in a bubble or was a polar bear and could hibernate for 6 months at a time.