Everyone i've ever cared for has left me in some way, so what happens when he does?
I think this is exactly why intimacy scares me at times and i feel so confused, i don't want to give him every part of me because it'll only hurt more once he's gone.
and the worst part is i can't even tell him this so instead i just look like an idiot who can't make up her mind.
The fact is i've pretty much become addicted to him in such a short amount of time, i love who he is and who i am when i'm around him. With him i can always laugh, we can be idiots together and we always have a good time. Last night for example we saw an owl, we went through weird bush areas and i had no idea where we were. but it was fun you know, its like whenever i'm with him we always go on some epic sort of adventure. i could write a book about our adventures.
how can someone so amazing want to be with someone like me?
this boy is so very different from any other, he gets me, and he's a strong person even when i can tell he just wants to breakdown, and even though every time i look at him i have no idea what he sees in me, i can't help but want him just that little bit more.
When i first met him i was instantly drawn to him, you know those people who radiate and you can tell that there's something different about them, something that sets them apart from everyone else around them. But i was out of his league, he was practically too good to be true and as i kept searching for something wrong with him while we talked, there was nothing.
Me and him are so completely opposite to one another, but lately i've been thinking..maybe we're just the right type of opposites? like the old saying 'opposites attract', and then there are certain times where we have the exact same views and opinions on things.
Anyhow, i need to stop thinking about him leaving me constantly because it kills me a little each time i do, and i don't think he likes hearing it very much, in fact it probably makes him want to strangle me at times.
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